Random post...

Its been 3 years since my last post..

Stumbled upon my own blog. Havent been updating. Im again hitting a crossroad of where to go next... 

Trying to set my priorities.. i think im a mother first before im a surgeon.. so i hope that helps me to decide...

Life Changing Momment ..

 Well... I Passedddd!!! I cant be anymore grateful to every1 that helped me along the way.. i feel that God really loved me alot.. with blessings from my late papa and prayers from every1 around me. I know alot of people really pray that i pass.. 

How lucky i am to get good and fair examiners.. questions that i somehow know the answer during viva.. and the exam arrangement was random but i somehow always get good case and answerable questions. Even the difficult questions i somehow read before. So so so thankfull... dont know how i did it.. but it was the most stressful and difficult exam that i remember.. more like emotionally and mentally old and tired.. getting palpitations at 3am.. diarrhoea like 4 to 5x a day.. 

Glad its all over.. finally getto spend some time with my daughter.. and my family.. sisters, mum.. 

Now another challenge ahead..

Pass is 1 thing. How to function as a surgeon and not kill someone is another...

New phase in life.. 

My favourite verse from my Prof on the last day of our lecture:

He said..

"I have equipped you with a boat with all that you need to survive.. including a dayung.. tomorrow you will take this boat across.. to the island where life is so much better there... your only enemy is the storm and weather... you can either reach there or karam half way, but dont you dare turn back..."

Glad to say I have arrived.. well .. getting used to this island is another challenge.. how will the people on the island treat us? Is it really that good here? Never reach never know...

Anyway.. no more studying for at least awhile... 

Life starts now.. or mayb after i finish gazettement..

What if...

One of my friend whose first child is almost the same age as zoe got pregnant again with 2nd child.. infact.. alot of my friends already have a 2nd child... i feel so happy for her.. but at the same time jealous... 

Now is our reproductive age that most ppl work hard to build a strong family foundation... 

This is when the what if comes...

If things go smoothly for me, will i be planning for a second child now? What if things were a little more different? 

Ofcourse i too want another sibling for zoe.. wont want her to be alone when im gone.. hmmm.. 

Well 1 phrase answers it all... the all time favourite

"Everything happens for a reason..."

Back to study for exam..hahaa.. 

Life Changing Moment...

 I remembered my Prof's words.. this is a life changing moment for us.. if we pass this exam, we will enter into the elite world.. So it requires life-changing effort.. so I need to work harder than ever to achieve.. 

Being a single-mother of 2.. 1 furkid and 1 kid..hahaa.. wouldnt say its easy.. but am i going all out? Yes alot of social arrangements and work arrangement for me to be able to study.. but somehow.. mayb its ageing process.. my brain cant function like it used to.. huhuuu. Too long din study already..

2020... definitely a year that every1 will remember due to the covid pandemic.. 

Wish me luck!

So near yet so far...

Series of unlucky events againn..
Started 2 weeks ago ( which happen to also be the start of hungry ghost month).. my car got hit from the back.. although blessing in disguise as i had a scratch at the back previously but now the whole thing will get replaced by insurance. But still.. the police station and workshop hassle... plus no car to use for 10 days...

Had to borrow an old iswara from the workshop which has multiple malfunction including the boot door cant close, the meter not working etc.. the only thing functioning is of course the famous malaysian aircond..

Well.. broke down twice on a same day.. first was tyre puncture.. after repairing, the engine decided to smoke.. an as the meter is malfunctioned, i din know till the smoke was coming out from the bonnet.. well..

Got another car from them.. also an iswara..
This 1 better, at least the boot closes..
But today.. decided to stop..guess what. Totaly my fault. Fuel indicator not working.
Ran out of petrol..

Lucky to stop right infront of petrol ststion, but unlucky that it is opposite direction of a highway..

stood there for 20 mins trying to cross to buy petrol, but no chance..

End up.walking 30 mins down the road to the next petrol station which doesnt involve crossing at highway..

With my crocodile mouth sandals.. well.. my other shoes r in the car boot.. which cant be opened at the workshop..

Finallly....

A petron.. now is when i dun getto choose what brand..

Hmm. What to fill petrol with? I think the workers get this quite often.. they gave me 2 bottle of cooking oil bottle filled with oil.. then i realise petrol is actualy quite cheap.. rm9.. well he asked for rm5 tips.. i gave cos he got me the bottles...

Now i hav to walk back.. grr.. seems faster walking back...

Tried starting the engine.. shit still cant start...

Luckily i read online that ubneed to wait for few seconds for the oil to fill up the engine.. 

Yeaii.. finally ignited... most important straight to petrol station before it stops again.. im actualy 5 mins away from home.. like so near but cos its highway.. so cant just cross the road..

N today happen to be mid of hungry ghost month..

Hopefully that puts the end of my unlucky events...

UTC PUDU ... Baby passport in 30 mins..

First time thinking about bringing my baby to make passport.. immigration office i was imagining long queue, worried if she can stay still for the picture ornot. The last time i remembered had to go to the canteen there to take passport foto from photo booth etc..

Tried looking for info online for baby friendly inmigration office, some1 recommebd sri hartamas branch but unfortunately not open on a saturday.

I just randomly tried my luck at utc pudu branch. On a saturday. Din even go like super early to queue. Went at 11am. There is a limit to adult number, but they have special number system for babies under 2 yo..

Yeai...

So 2033.. number now is 2032..
So after like 2 mins.. was called to the counter.
Showed the original documents ( baby birthcert, my ic and baby mykid.) And 1 photocopy of all. If you forgot to photocopy, there is a shop nearby that can photocopy.
Mayb about 5 mins at the counter, including taking photo for zoe, the officer was friendly enough to patiently wait for me to get her ready for foto. Used my fone to lure her to look at the screen, he was quick to take the foto. Noneed to repeat..hahaa...

Another 5 mins called to counter 9 to pay.. rm100 for under 13 yrs old...
From there he asked to wait awhile more at counter 12.
I see from the paper he gave me that passport will be ready in 1 hr..
Sat for awhile, gave zoe some milk, was about to leave to find food outside, when they suddenly called our number in less than 10 mins.
To my surprise, passport is ready!.
All in less than 30mins..

For adult the officer told me i can apply online and collect tmr. I think ill try that.

Life of a doctor mum...

Was oncall yesterday.. so din see my daughter for more than 36 hours.. Yes we still have this ONCALL 36 hours thing.. means i work from yesterday morning till today morning (24 h) and continue to work like normal day til i finish work.

N today happen to be OT day.. means have to scrub for surgery till finish.. which happen to finish abit later at 7pm..

Rushed to see my daughter, have dinner and reached home at 8pm... All worth it when i see her happy face greeting me..

Finished my doctor duty, now my mummy duty.. reached home, feed my dog aka my fur-son who is also so excited because he hasnt seen me in 2 days..

8pm to 830pm brought both of them for walk and poo and pee etc.. (kill 2 birds with 1 stone)..

830pm to 845pm bath time.. tried to make it fun yet quick bath.. plus lotion and change into pajamas.

845 to 9pm.. zoe had recent playdough craze.. ok since have not played for 2 days.. just 15 mins..

9pm to 9.15pm.. preparing milk + hot water flask time plus zoe and milo ( my oversized fur kid) interactive time. Also vitamin time and cleaning milo pee and poo at the backyard time..

9.15pm.to 9.40pm... bedtime story... 1 book after another.. luckily today she was quite sleepy. So just 1 peppa story and 1 lady and tramp story in the dark (yes i have memorised the whole book so i can still read with the lights off till she sleeps)

10pm.. finally asleep.. and my rest time..

1045pm.. made sure she is in deep sleep.. now fingernails with torchlight time..

11pm.. done..

11.15pm.. blogging now..

11.16pm.. time to sleep.