Life Changing Momment ..

 Well... I Passedddd!!! I cant be anymore grateful to every1 that helped me along the way.. i feel that God really loved me alot.. with blessings from my late papa and prayers from every1 around me. I know alot of people really pray that i pass.. 

How lucky i am to get good and fair examiners.. questions that i somehow know the answer during viva.. and the exam arrangement was random but i somehow always get good case and answerable questions. Even the difficult questions i somehow read before. So so so thankfull... dont know how i did it.. but it was the most stressful and difficult exam that i remember.. more like emotionally and mentally old and tired.. getting palpitations at 3am.. diarrhoea like 4 to 5x a day.. 

Glad its all over.. finally getto spend some time with my daughter.. and my family.. sisters, mum.. 

Now another challenge ahead..

Pass is 1 thing. How to function as a surgeon and not kill someone is another...

New phase in life.. 

My favourite verse from my Prof on the last day of our lecture:

He said..

"I have equipped you with a boat with all that you need to survive.. including a dayung.. tomorrow you will take this boat across.. to the island where life is so much better there... your only enemy is the storm and weather... you can either reach there or karam half way, but dont you dare turn back..."

Glad to say I have arrived.. well .. getting used to this island is another challenge.. how will the people on the island treat us? Is it really that good here? Never reach never know...

Anyway.. no more studying for at least awhile... 

Life starts now.. or mayb after i finish gazettement..

What if...

One of my friend whose first child is almost the same age as zoe got pregnant again with 2nd child.. infact.. alot of my friends already have a 2nd child... i feel so happy for her.. but at the same time jealous... 

Now is our reproductive age that most ppl work hard to build a strong family foundation... 

This is when the what if comes...

If things go smoothly for me, will i be planning for a second child now? What if things were a little more different? 

Ofcourse i too want another sibling for zoe.. wont want her to be alone when im gone.. hmmm.. 

Well 1 phrase answers it all... the all time favourite

"Everything happens for a reason..."

Back to study for exam..hahaa.. 

Life Changing Moment...

 I remembered my Prof's words.. this is a life changing moment for us.. if we pass this exam, we will enter into the elite world.. So it requires life-changing effort.. so I need to work harder than ever to achieve.. 

Being a single-mother of 2.. 1 furkid and 1 kid..hahaa.. wouldnt say its easy.. but am i going all out? Yes alot of social arrangements and work arrangement for me to be able to study.. but somehow.. mayb its ageing process.. my brain cant function like it used to.. huhuuu. Too long din study already..

2020... definitely a year that every1 will remember due to the covid pandemic.. 

Wish me luck!